Dinner troubles

Last night was my art show. I stayed there the whole time. Was kind of uncomfortable. Just talking with people about my art. But people seemed to all like it. But it ended at 8 pm and I didn't have dinner there. I waited till I got home at like9:30! I ended up having it with my pm snack. I know I didn't have enough though.

I felt like it was okay to restrict some. I justified it by not exercising so much lately. Only 100mins in the last two days. 110 before that.

I know I need to stick with m.p. despite exercise but this morning I woke in the same mood rather. Like I didn't wanna eat so much following my meal plan.

I know I could have planned a bit better. My initial plan was to pick dinner up at the super market, but when i went I didn't find anything I liked. And didn't want to spend any money. I've been spending more money lately and not stealing. I'm telling myself I don't need to steal since I will get a job soon. But naturally this is hard. I've been cutting back on stealing because honestly I'm scared of getting caught more now. I'm very suspicious the stores are catching on.

But on a lighter note Mom called last night. And said that my insurance starting October 1st will be unlimited! I'm so very happy about this. Therapy will be unlimited! Inpatient! And outpatient. I'm planning on enrolling in Fresno's ED center of Fresno down the street. I'd go there about 4 hours a day. The only thing I'm worried about is time. Time with school and a job. I really want a job to make some cash. Luckily I'm only attending one class this semester. So I think I can make it work.

Why do I want to restrict today? I weighed self again this morning. Since Wednesday last week I gained .2 lbs. Now on Kelly's scale I am 85.2.

But I feel it's wrong. I feel like I have been gaining more then that for sure! I need to just throw out the bloody thing. The scale is just bad news. Nothing good will come from it I suppose. But I always think it will help me keep on track. It only motivates me when I haven't gained as much as I anticipated. I'm surprised of its reading. I figured I had gained more since the lack of walking. The walking has only been cut back like 20-30 mins though. So I suppose that's not enough to manipulate my weight gain too much.