Exercise binge?

UUUUGGGGGHHH. I woke up today in a good mood.But I feel like exercising today. over my limit. It's like I am planning on it. Looking forward to it. Like planning an exercise binge. As would a bulimic plan a food binge.

I imagine the euphoria of walking...

But I know it will only hurt me!

Ways exercise will hurt me:

I'll be very tired and fatigued

I know I'll have to eat more...but won't know what to eat extra, and probably won't.

Later on, I will feel guilty and like a failure forgiving in the the E.D.

It will take time away from me doing other healthy things. Like, spending time with people, reading my book, drawing, writing etc...

I wonder why I have this urge. Lately I've been fighting it and have been doing well...for the most part. I haven't gotten to 120 for along time, and the last two days have only walked 85 minutes!!

So what is the trigger? The onset for me feeling this way.

With-drawls? I haven't been over extending exercise for a while, so I'm just anxious. Feels like their is bottled up 'stuff' inside me that I need to just purge out of me.

Nervous about job and money?

I don't completely know. But I guess I shouldn't depend on insight at the moment. Just because I don't know the complete reasoning, doesn't mean I have to prolong taking the correct action.

I know what's right even if I don't know what's causing me to want to do otherwise.

One must first save the burning baby, before examining the fire.