What else is there?

Well I went to my first Ed support group for young girls. I liked it. It will be every week.

What I want to touch on today though is how much I think about my Ed.

I realized yesterday that it literally is all i think about. It's exhausting. And is getting frustrating and redundant.

I think about it all day and every day. My recovery and its process.

I know recovery takes over 100% of a person's life, from any addiction. I think this is appropriate though, i mean recovery is something you need to work on and work on because it is never ending. Its a process not an event. There is no real finish line and the road is always trailing.

But I do wish I had something else to focus on. I do puzzles, watch TV to attempt to remove and distract myself from the ed. But I would like to have some other interest besides recovery. Only because I feel that if I put so much obsessive interest and dedication into another venture I could definitely accomplish any task.

But it is very hard to fork my thinking into another direction especially since right now in my life, my recovery is the most important thing in life.

What can I do and think about besides recovery?

I should find other interests, I have so many, I am quite the hobbyist, but giving my time to another subject or topic is difficult for me. Everything I become enthralled with it is not long until my thought is redirected back into my ed and my recovery.

So....New interest?

I can read about politics? Get involved with world issues. Remove myself from myself.

Begin an art project, i.e. writing a book, collage, painting, portraits, tattoos for others and myself.

Read a book.

Study religion.

Talk with friends.

Watch films I enjoy, TV I enjoy. (good thing I have Netflix) right now I love The Riches on HBO.

Get back into biographies, documentaries.

Learn new hobby, take up crocheting again, shop?, bead, sew.

Redecorate, organize room.

Do daily chores.

Museums.

Walk somewhere which I have not been before.

Learn to cook a ethnic cuisine.

There are many things I can do out of the ordinary that will spike my curiosity and keep recovery thoughts at bay. At least for a while I hope.

Hmmm...wish me luck.

-Amy

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