Friday, August 20, 2010

two bites too few

Last night I was surprised by my reaction to my snack when watching Sex and the City.
Miranda was talking about how she wanted to lose weight, and went on Weight watchers. But she went into a restaurant and gave into half a glazed doughnut. She said that the treat was worth being fat for.
I felt disgusted...and angry for her giving in.
I related with her for giving in to temptation. I wasn't having a doughnut, but I wanted an extra fruit.
Tho I knew I needed more cals because my supplements didn't equal to the amount they were suppose to. 520 cals. So I said I would add another fruit or two to add to the supplement amount. But for some reason I just felt mad. Mad that I was having another fruit? I started to get choked up.
So as I was battling with throwing away the last few bites of my protein bars, I had a couple more bites. But left two bites and just threw them away.

I'm upset at this. I knew that I was not solving anything. But I think I felt anger towards the protein bars. They weren't appetizing. I wasn't enjoying the taste of them and thus didn't want them? Idk. Truly I don't exactly know what had gotten into me.



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