She said that once she sells the house she will have an apartment and I will be able to live with her. I'll help out a bit once I get a job. Which I'm fine with.
We'll be house mates. I guess this is part of growing up.
Having to pay expenses and such.
Kind of excited now, for the challenge of growing into adulthood. Kelly will most likely move in with Dave. Though i hope she chooses to stay with us. Idk if she is fully confident with Dave and living with him. He is so much younger. Is he ready for that kind of commitment?
Either way, I'll find a job when i return, continue therapy, I'll pay out of pocket until January comes and my insurance renews and begins to cover therapy once more.
I must continue therapy, it is an investment that I need to make.
I'm getting more lenient with spending money. Spending is part of being an adult. Providing for myself. I can't depend on others and I can't expect to save everything I make.
I'm glad that I am transitioning slowly into adulthood and providing for myself.
I'll keep going to school full time, I hope I can get all the classes I wait listed for.
I pray that when school starts again I reignite a healthy social life and partake in good friendships. That God will send me a boyfriend possibly and I can continue to grow.
I'll stay in Fresno till I'm comfortable with my weight and meal plan, I'll maintain here, and then hopefully move back to WA so I can be with my family up there.
THANK YOU GOD for relieving this stress. I knew that this problem was more overwhelming then it should have been, that i just needed to talk it out and plan a bit with Peg. Which I did, I now know what to expect and things are better now. Things will be moderately the same. She will be home now in the morning, which will sway my routine, but I will adapt. I can still exercise, either outside, or buy my own exercise bike.
Things will be okay. I will still be around food I am comfortable with and things will not change drastically.
I will stay in WA this summer for about three-four weeks I'm thinking. That's enough time to spend with family. I'll buy a plane ticket back if I need to. If it is too stressful. I'm hoping though that someone will be willing to drive me back on a road trip. I really want Jessica to drive me back, but everyone seems weary about doing so.
I'll figure it out.
Concerning my meal plan: I am using a Tsp of Brown Sugar as one fat now, instead of Pb and cream cheese. I use Pb on my toast. Idk if sugar is considered a at though. There aren't any grams of fat content. So I know deep down I'm cheating.
I'm still stressed a but about my trip. About the food and exercise. Especially with Jessica and Ruthanne. But I just need to remind myself that I am in control. That I won't be forced to do anything I don't want to. I must stand my ground and accommodate to my needs.
Even if I do gain a bit more in WA that is okay. Weight gain is the goal, so I mustn't fret over that.
Lord, continue to give me clarity and mindfulness. Help me realize my slips and pick myself back up. To not take my problems out on restricting. Food is not the answer and it will not solve any problems, only make new ones and make the current ones worse.
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