Yay for a great day.

Well today has been a good day thus far.

I think its due to me actually finding things to do this morning.

Little things that kept my mind occupied.

I'm trying not to exercise so much. Staying around 90 mins. My body can't handle 2 hrs consistently.

I should just exercise a healthy amount and let my body change as it needs to.

I hooked up with this guy. Joe. I think i might be using him as a distraction though. A distraction from me always thinking about my recovery. Its a relief to be thinking of a life outside of an ed.

I would like to become more serious with him, there is potential for a serious relationship. But sadly what we have going on is an inevitable fling based on the fact of me leaving for the summer and possibly deciding to stay there.

I love my body. I have to. I need to still gain and focus on my recovery. I need to gain and have a healthier body and mind, a life that does not revolve around the amount of exercise I do or how many calories I eat.

This fling with Joe makes me feel like I have a life that doesn't involve me planning and thinking obsessively about the ed.